Again, I'm posting an entry early in the morning which brings about only two deduction of what actually happened that I can actually post an entry this early which is either I'm getting more and more hardworking or perhaps, I didn't sleep at all again for the whole night. Sighs.

Yeah, I didn't sleep throughout the whole night again today and I think I really need to solve this problem today and thus I'm now taking the initiative to initiate operation codenamed as below:-

I love it during the night when I'm alone in my room as it is one of the best chances for me to reflect on myself.

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Once upon a time, there was a very strong woodcutter. He asked for a job from a timber merchant, and he got it. The pay was really good and so were the work conditions. For that reason the woodcutter was determined... to do his best. His boss gave him an axe and showed him the area where he was supposed to work.

The first day, the woodcutter brought down 18 trees. The Boss was very much impressed and said, "Congratulations keep it up!" Very motivated by the words of the boss, the woodcutter tried harder the next day, but he only could bring down 15 trees. The third day he tried even harder, but he only could bring down 10 trees.

Day after day he was bringing down less and less trees. "I must be losing my strength", the woodcutter thought to himself. He went to the boss and apologized, saying that he could not understand what was going on.

"When was the last time you sharpened your Axe?" the boss asked. "Sharpen? I had no time to sharpen my Axe. I have been very busy trying to cut trees."

Recently, there's just too many issues in UTAR especially on the issue of the parking at the eastgate issues, where there are rumours that they would have to start paying in order to park at the area. Well, after reading some comments and even to find out that people would start boycotting UTAR by not going to class, I felt the itch to have my say too.

For the past 3 sems in Kampar, no one among my group have a car and everyone was using a bicycle to move around, now that some of them start to drive around Kampar, everything changed just so rapidly that I can't see where is it gonna go in the future.

Why are people always this selfish and would only think of getting an advantage on people? Hoping that a particular person to join just because he have something extra to go on with and not because, it's him that you want to be together?

Is this world so realistic, whereby if you have no value in you, you'll end up being kicked up and down everywhere as if there's no place for you to stay? I'm seriously wondering how is it going to be already.

At least, when people tend to fetch you around, you would have the courtesy to thank people and only to thank people. But what I see now is, some don't even say a word of thanks and some thank, just for the sake of having another trip to other places again.

I'm sick of it, what the heck? A car was brought here just for the use of others? to fetch some idiots out to eat? I hate it when people assume that, "when he's here, there's a car". Can't a particular person stand on your own feet and be independent?

I was extremely not well for the past 2 days as one of the worst sickness of my life, which I had never like struck me again. I call him or her or it, whatever you wanna call 'flu' or perhaps a more scientifically proven term is 'common cold.'

What makes me hate it is that this stupid sickness eventually affects my throat and most importantly my eyes as my eyes weren't healthy at all since I got a swell in my eye long long time ago, oh wait-.. It was just 2 years ago.

What's worse perhaps is the massive amount of assignments flowing in and when I say massive, it means MASS and it brings the meaning of, "cannot be stored in a particular location at the same time." - Credits to my mass comm lecturers for these few semesters :)

Eventually, after completing one of it (I dont even have the energy to print, so I asked Zhen Yan to do it, Thanks man!~), here am I after a 12 hours sleep from last night's 9pm till around 8.45am this morning.

I felt that I'm extremely fatigue now and I really need a break, in which I could never afford to do it now as there are so many assignments ahead of me and so many tight deadlines (Oh wait, why am I even blogging now if I'm so busy?)

It's due the point that I found out when I was in a deep sleep and rest last night along with some lecturer slides my lecturer point out on. This question was in my mind for quite some time and it goes like this, "What's creativity? Does it mean something original? or something people used that sells and works out? Does creativity mean anything when it doesn't sell even though it's original?"

As I am a pro-playsafe person in life. I believe that things should always be done professionally, and try to reduce the risk that would be faced at all cost, but does it mean that I would have to sacrifice the creativity in me? Wait, do I even have creativity in me??

Too much question, perhaps someone would answer me? Am I even in the right course now? No doubt, i enjoy this course as much as it is concerned but the thing is, am I able to live in the industry in the future? Journalism? Since I "LOVE" writing so much =)

Everything's been rather normal yet rough to me at the same time these days. Eventually took a full day break today from any assignments, work, problems and whatever that happened for the past 5 weeks in my studies. Went back to Ipoh and had an extreme slumber after long weeks of needed-sleep-but-never-given situations that I was in followed by an outing back in my alma mater, St. Michael's Institution for its stage play, aka drama night. Ultimately, it was good. Met up with some of my friends, mainly Louis who is gonna face the STPM terror and Muvin.

This post serves as a reminder to myself. Sometimes, giving your best is never enough in life. At times, you'll definitely fall and no matter how hard you try to change that fact, nothing would actually be able to mend the situation. Was extremely down this evening (night, to be precise). and well, yeah. Things were exceptionally bad as this was a week, very rough for myself. Physically, and emotionally everything was upside down. All was in a mess and nothing was right. Sometimes, things are in situation where I myself, do not know how to handle things and was forced to actually submit to what people call, fate. Being myself, I didn't. I fought for it hard and as strong as I could, thats where I fall as hard as ever.

The clock is ticking at 3.32am right now. In front of my computer and TV, with the match between Cameroon and Denmark. It kinda late, considering that I would need to wake up at 8 tomorrow for church worship service. Yet, things are puzzling in my mind and I can find no answer at all. I've never actually faced this kinda situation for a lot of time, or perhaps this had never happened to me before since year 2008, where shit happens all the time of the year.

I used to be an extremely care-free person, who takes things very easily. Or what we Malaysians call "chin chai". I remember very clearly, what my instructor told me last time, not to take things so lightly, and when a problem arises, solve it immedeately and don't delay. Being me at that time, I didn't changed much and thus, causing a lot of problem to the people around me, or perhaps the whole band started crumbling, because of me. Yes, because of me.

2 years later, at year 2010. I am proud to tell the world that I've changed. I'm no longer the care-free Jeffery Chan. Whenever problem arises, I put my heart and my mind to look for solutions. I try my utmost best to solve a problem as soon as possible so that it would not get ugly in the future. I know my role when problem arises, I simply know that when things happen, I should do something to prevent it from getting worse. Yet, I wonder did I ever changed for the betterment or for the worst now. Whenever I try to solve anything, it gets worse.

Where do I stand? At this point of time, I do not know what am I supposed to do anymore. Even a simple chat, can evolve into a war. Do I actually look too high up to myself? I do not know who am I anymore. Every word I say is actually offensive. I've tried to put my ego off, but what am I actually doing right now? Why am I even writing this post? Am I even trying to mend off situation now? why..

Who Am I?