Being Dumb
Just Feeling dumb and free. So I did this thing and I got this result.
Just to share it around.
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Chinese New Year
Just a very short post.
Wishing all my readers a
Happy Chinese New Year
Gong Xi Fa Chai
Gong Hei Fatt Choi
Selamat Tahun Baru Cina
Gong Hei Fatt Choi
Selamat Tahun Baru Cina
Gosh, time really passes very fast now that it's already chinese new year. I still remember last year's chinese new year. Where everything is so normal. Lets just hope everything goes well throughout this year of cow.
Mooooo-ing off
Mooooo-ing off
Reflections
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Eagles, soar high
Had a conversation with Andy just now. And well, he and myself as band members would obviously start talking about band. This basically brings me back to the first year I joined the band at year 2004. Where I was still an innocent, cute and ordinary kid. Without even realising, 5 years had passed and I'm now already an alumni. Able to do nothing but to watch from far. Or even at home hearing news and not being there anymore.
I do remember the pride we once had, now forgotten. The chat brought be back to year 2004 and 2005. Where I re-watched back every single thing that had been done. Frankly, I do miss that time. In fact, I'm proud to say that I'm one of the 'kid' performing right on stage and on the field. Sad to say, everything ended and now I'm left here. Regrets and sadness storms myself when I realised that I didn't actually fully ultilize everything I had during those years. Now that I can't do anything anymore.
Well, life goes on. As life is a journey, I do believe that I've faced a lot. The uprising, the peak, and the fall. But would there be a revival ? Well, can't say anything bout that. I believe that things had ended for me and I shall have no doubt about that anymore. It's a waste somehow to see things going on this way but well, nothing can be done. I have lots of things in the future to face already. Pray for me in this matter.
My favourite verse from the bible
Philippians 4:13 - I can do all things through christ who strengtheneth me.
- Signing off -
Another tag ??
Geez
This is what happen when i start to tag ppl
Ppl would tag me back
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Rules : You cannot answer the questions by repeating the previous answer
State 5 facts of yourself that people know
- Quiet person(sometimes)
- Loves and deep into music
- I have many blogs, dead ones
- I havent get my driving license
- I spend my time dreaming at home
State 5 facts that people don't know
- I'm a very deep thinker
- I look more into Quality
- I'm actually quite shy. Lol
- I get emo-fied by music easily
- I wanna be a extrovert, but failed badly
State 5 bad things about yourself
- Too lazy, I guess ??
- Lack of self confidence
- Tend to go very 'emo' easily
- Can never wake up from sleep
- Pessimistic and lack of will power
State 5 good things about yourself
- I'm handsome
- I'm a christian
- I'm a good boy
- I don't hold grudges for long
- Used to be impatient but now, considered patient
Now Tag 5 peoples
- Kam Wah ( You again)
- Keigan (I love to tag you)
- Joel (lemme read lame ans)
- Khai Wern (post more photo)
- Andy (do something b4 u leave)
Is money everything ??
Had a 'discussion' with some of my friends in regards to the topic above. Hence before I point out my view... What do YOU think about that ?? Is money simply as said above, everything ?? I do believe for those who knows me, I'm someone who never believes that money is everything. I do have doubts after the chat, and therefore I went and did some studies about it.A lot of people claim success to be having a lot of money where we can easily do things without any trouble. When we are sick, we would have money to see a doctor. When we want something, money can buy that for ourselves. When we have enough money and everlasting income, we are considered successful. Isn't it true ?? Sadly, I dont agree to this... I do consider cash important but it's certainly not everything. It's just something that we, humans will need to survive.
Money can buy a house, but never a homeMoney can buy us a clock, but can never buy us time
Money can buy us a bed, but can never buy us good night sleepMoney can buy us a book, but can never buy us knowledge and wisdom
Money can buy a post in any company, but can never buy respectMoney can buy a doctor, but can never buy us health
Money can buy blood, but can never buy life
For those who always talk about friendship
Money can buy a friend and a person, but can never buy his/heart heart and love
If that's the case,
what is success ??
Everlasting and infinite money ??
For myself, I do not consider the monetary part as something that is so important in my life. Of course, everyone needs money but it's not success at all for me. I do believe that success comes from the spiritual part of our life. Which we would be facing after death
For myself, I do not consider the monetary part as something that is so important in my life. Of course, everyone needs money but it's not success at all for me. I do believe that success comes from the spiritual part of our life. Which we would be facing after deathMat 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.
There's another quote I feel quite interesting from my father's blog which goes like this
Those who believe money can do everything are frequently prepared to do everything for money. Would you rather live richly ?? Or die with riches.
With that, I do and still believe in my stand where money isn't everything. We may be a billionaire but can we buy back your mother and father ? Can we buy the friendship we have in school or at our work place and most importantly. Can we buy our own life ?? I would end this post with a simple story which really hits directly to my heart when my father gave a sermon about riches
An American businessman was at the pier of a tiny coastal Mexicanvillage when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large yellowfin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them. The Mexican replied, "Only a little while."
The American then asked why didn't he stay out longer and catch more fish? The Mexican said that he had enough to support his family's immediate needs. The American then asked, "But what do you do with the rest of your time?"
The Mexican fisherman replied,
"I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take a siesta with my wife Maria, stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos. I have a full and busy life, senor."
The American scoffed,
"I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing and with the proceeds buy a bigger boat and with the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats, eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman you would increase your profits and sell directly to the processor, eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this tiny coastal fishing village and move to Mexico City, then to LA and eventually NYC where you will run your expanding enterprise."
The Mexican fisherman asked, "But senor, how long will this all take?"
The American replied, "15-20 years."
"But what then, senor?"
The American laughed and said, "That's the best part. When the time is
right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public
and become very rich, you would make millions."
"Millions, senor? Then what?"
The American said, "Then you would retire. Move to a tiny coastal fishing village where you could sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take a siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your amigos."
"But I though I was doing this all along, senor ??"
With this
I hereby end my post
- Signing off -
I hereby end my post
- Signing off -
True ?? or Untrue -.-
Until now, I can't decide on what I want but I kinda searched for something to test myself but i end up getting this
Curious, energetic, adaptable, and creative, ENFPs like considering unconventional approaches. They enjoy batting around ideas and finding creative solutions and are energized and intrigued by new possibilities and anything out of the ordinary. ENFPs tend to be talkative, enthusiastic, playful, and generally fun-loving people. Warm and caring, ENFPs have strong personal values upon which they base most decisions. Conversations with ENFPs can be very circular as they excitedly move from one topic to the next, making connections and associations. Unconventional and occasionally irreverent, they pride themselves on their uniqueness and originality. Optimistic, and spontaneous, ENFPs have a strong sense of the possible. For them, life is an exciting drama. Because they are so interested in possibilities, ENFPs see significance in all things and prefer to keep lots of options open.
Possible Satisfying Job Areas:
Drawing Arts
Engineer & Structure
Social Science
Business Skills
IT & Multimedia
Mass Comm.
Social Science
Business Skills
IT & Multimedia
Mass Comm.
Think its rather true for me?? or not ??
Do post on the comments coz I wanna noe
LoLz
Do post on the comments coz I wanna noe
LoLz
P/s : I feel it's kinda WRONG
Tag ?? Alright -.-
1.Do you think you're hot ??
No, I know that I'm hot,handsome,cute,cool,pretty,beautiful,kind,caring
*most of it are fakes*
2.Upload your favourite picture of you
3.Why do you like that picture
Well, basically I like all pictures of mine due to some obvious reason which I want you to think of it yourself coz I feel that its obvious enough for you to know the answer but if you do not know, don't bother to ask me coz I'm going to say the same thing over again.
4.When was the last time you ate pizza
Forgot, you just have to ask the calender instead of me since my mind are used to think and remember useful stuffs and not to eat pizza
5.The last song you listened to
Raymond Lam - Love without regrets
6.What are you thinking besides this
*My brothers are laming beside me, when can there go up and sleep?*
7.What name you prefer besides yours
The ever obvious name, Lengzai gorgor ~~
People to tag :-
(a)Yan Hoe (Tag you for fun..answer !!)
(b)Kam Wah (somehow ur name comes)
(c)Desmond (Continue and write (d) too)
(d)Joel Ooi (following what andy wrote)
8.Who is (a)
Just a normal person you don't wanna mess with. Those who know him shud und this lolz
9.(c) having relationship with ?
Relationship ?? Naah, the only relationship he have is with God i think =)
10.Say something about (b)
Some dude I got to know in prefects ?? What he knows is MCR ~~
11.What about (d)
Smiley, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame, lame and finally LAME
Troubled
Hence the title
I am very troubled and confused
Where would I be heading off after my SPM results are released ?? Am I gonna go for my STPM ?? Or am I going to pursue my studies into college. I do believe that most of my friends whom asked me before this question would know my answer which is form 6. To go back to my alma mater, St. Michael's to continue my form 6 (which is 'A'-Levels for those who don't know).
Somehow or rather through fate or whatever it is, I came to a doubt at this point where I don't even know where I'm heading in my future. Indeed, most of the ones who've gone through form 6 would say that it's the best way since it provides a very strong foundation but, I doubt that subjects like physics, chemistry and biology would do any good to what I want in the future. I'm not that particular person who am at professional jobs who earn big bucks.
Physics had been my worst subject in my form 4 and form 5. If I were to take this subject again in form 6, I can't imagine what'll happen to myself. Chemistry on the other hand is a compulsary subject and I can't choose whether or not to take it. Biology is even worse. How can someone who don't even dare to touch a living object(animal) study this subject ?? In addition to that, I doubt I'll be going for any jobs in these 3 field so why am I wasting my time on that ?
Why?? Why?? How??
What then ? Am I gonna go for the other alternative ? To continue on with colleges ? Alright ! It's a good choice but what am I gonna do ? These question have been storming my mind for a very long period of time. If I've gotten my decision, do I have the capability to even pay for those tuition fees since scholarship would eventually reject me(I'm not a very good scorer in my exams fyi)
Why?? Why?? How??What then ? Am I gonna go for the other alternative ? To continue on with colleges ? Alright ! It's a good choice but what am I gonna do ? These question have been storming my mind for a very long period of time. If I've gotten my decision, do I have the capability to even pay for those tuition fees since scholarship would eventually reject me(I'm not a very good scorer in my exams fyi)
Why am I thinking so much nowadays but not last time ??
I believe that I did not even have the chance to think bout it last time due to my tight schedule but now that I have the time, I'm thinking so many stuffz which ends up with a question mark.
What should I do ??
I believe that I did not even have the chance to think bout it last time due to my tight schedule but now that I have the time, I'm thinking so many stuffz which ends up with a question mark.
What should I do ??
New template
I've used my whole nite to get this new template down. Glad to say it's basically done now and it's not those 'copy-and-paste' template. It's been done by myself. This is the first time, which basically shows how bored I am. Well, I do believe that my title last time was kinda lame so I'd change it from 'passion of live' to 'My musical Journey' as I think it looks better :)
Would be updating more from now on since I'm SO free
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- Signing Off -
The Act Of Forgiving
Forgive and Forget
Something very easy to say yet hard to do. So why does this 3 words struck into my mind ? Well, I was introduced to it just recently from the lamest game on the internet, Maple Story. There's this small guild of mine which have the motto "4give and 4get". Initially I tot it was some kinda joke because everyone knows, it's very rare for ppl to be able to forgive and forget.
I still remember the Jeffery who couldn't forget grudge and also vengeance towards people. I believe that many of you know that I'm easily angered during 2004,2005,2006 or perhaps a little on 2007. I find it so hard to forgive someone who've did something that I didn't like. I was wondering why this happens. I realised that the one whom I cannot forgive is not others but myself. I can't forgive myself to be so carefree towards things and not taking actions although I know that I shud be taking actions.
This made me ponder a lot and I took some actions to ask for forgiveness from others. Sadly, I believe things are way too late to be changed. I can only hope that things get better as time passes.
This made me ponder a lot and I took some actions to ask for forgiveness from others. Sadly, I believe things are way too late to be changed. I can only hope that things get better as time passes.
Everybody does mistakes
Some realises it very fast and they change
Some realises it but they doesn't change
BUT
Many realised it but it's too late to do anything
Many don't realise it thus they don't change
Many don't realise it thus they don't change
Therefore, the ones who are unhappy with someone, do speak out as through arguements comes peace and deeper understanding between each other
Luk 17:3 Take heed to yourselves. If thy brother trespass against thee, rebuke him and if he repent, forgive him.
In conclusion
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~Forgive and forget~
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Attitude !!!
Thus the word at the title, I believe that it's something very important in our life.. I still remember Pn.Shaw wanni told my class this
"A is the 1st alphabeth we learn in our life, which represents Attitude and thats where it's something very important, the most important thing in our life"
I believe most of the students in class practically ignored what she said and treat that as crap but well, these words still dwell in me since that day. Thats where I realised that I lack of a particular attitude. I call that the "CAN DO" attitude. For the past times, I never had confidence in myself esp with the presence of elderly or basically ppl more exprienced than me. I nvr want to do anything when they are around because I feel that I can't do anything better than them and if there's anything that needs to be change, they'll do it. Thats where I believe things are being done in the wrong manner
Can I Do ?
You CAN DO everything, but not all at once
You CAN DO everything, if it's important enough for you to do
You CAN DO everything, but you may not be the best at everything
You CAN DO everything, but there will be limitations
You CAN DO everything, but you need help
I believe that this attitude can bring me to a further path. My CANNOT DO attitude caused my church youth group to kinda collapse last year but since it's now rising up again, I do hope that I can help to bring it back up. My CANNOT DO attitude caused my band to stay stagnant at one path last year, and I believe that I must and can do something about it as long as I'm still in Ipoh
Life's tough but I do believe things can be done
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Php 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
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With this I end my post
-Signing Off-
The road not taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
Ah,the exact poem which reflects into my mind when I think of what I'm facing now. I have exactly two roads now to take and obviously, I'm still in the midst of choosing one. Both of the roads would mean goodness to me in various ways but which would I be choosing ?? Should I be going back to my old times in doing the similar thing which I've been doing for the past 5 years ?? Or should I not do it at all cost and perform a 180 degree turn from here onwards ??
Sometimes, there are things inside my mind which I wanted to do but I do not have the courage to do it anymore. But I know, decisions had to be made no matter what. I hope that I would be able to face this diverged route of mine. Where I can only be at one path. Would I be as the poem said whether I would be looking back at the past next time with a sigh and fret through it because I couldn't take the other road.
Pray for me in this matter
Hence,
I take my leave
I take my leave
New Year 2008
Year 2008 had come to and end and year 2009 just step foot into my life ... This just makes me one year older ! (darned). I do not know why am I feeling so weird now but indeed I'm not actually happy this new year due to some reasons which I do not know... Somehow I feel that this year's new year is a moody one for me.. Where almost all things that I've been doing for the past years end just like that...
Well, year 2008 had been a really tough and hard year for me to handle. Having so much work in school and facing my major exams this year was a headache.. What more I have the whole band to handle and a concert to organize with so much politics going on. I'm glad I made through it and well it's now the past. I believe that I should put down things right from this moment already but somehow, I'm having this hard feeling on myself... I'm feeling sad watching and looking at things go off like this.. Well perhaps it's just my 'dumb' emo fever coming back again...
Well cut the crap as it is the past... Whats important now is the future ... Since ppl usually make new year resolutions .. I'll be doing it too yeah !! But first, lemme show u back what's my resolution last year -.-
- My Final Band Competition 2008 ( Top 2 placings ) - Failed Badly
- Do Good In My Studies , SPM ( 9 - 10 A's ) - Yet to know
- Focus On Important Stuff And Avoid Procrastination - I procrastinated a lot
- Dare To Speak Out More Rather Than Being Quiet - Only if someone starts it
- Update This Blog Regularly !! - Are my updates considered regular ?? lolz
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Darned, seems that I actually didn't fulfill most of my new year resolution last year.. Well, hopefully this list would be better offt fulfilled by next year eh..
- Be an extrovert rather than an introvert
- I don't wanna be the one who sits down there laughing when jokes are made by others anymore ... It just ain't myself but somehow my mind can't move fast enuf to react with situations .. Well, I managed to speak out last year and I don't want to be an introvert no more
- Be someone rather 'polite'
- Rough language have to go offt my mouth .. As a christian, I suppose that words that comes out from my mouth isn't suppose to be so.. I'm going to make this change ASAP as I believe that the current me isn't good enough...
- Be happy !!
- I don't wanna continue the emotional and sad type of myself anymore .. As what ppl always say life goes on whether it's happy or sad.. Why not go on happily rather than being sad all the time ?? This must change !!
- Sleep early !!! (I'm not sure if I can do this)
- I'm sleeping early every night from now onwards and waking up early from now onwards.. say around 1.00am the LATEST(it's very early for me as I sleep at 4.00am nowadays) ?? and waking up at around 8.30am since it's holiday for me now.. Bwahahaha
- Do God's work
- I think this would be the main aim for me this year. YDP 2008 actually woke me up from deep sleep.. The ones who woke me up includes alvin,amy,daniel and well .. that group, you know who u are.. I think I shud start to do things rather than being a sleeper all the time...
I think that'll end my post for this 1/1/09
Time passed really fast ...
For the friends and ppl who reads this blog, I wish you guys and girls a
Happy New Year 2009