I had a dream 2 nights ago and well, it's kinda weird I guess... Weird until I can still recall a bit of it right now. Somehow I dream about the situation right after exams when the results are out .. Most, in fact everyone is busy searching for their own pathway in life to walk on to. They have their ambitions and most importantly an aim in their life of what they want to be. Courses had been applied and they got the offer and thus they start to leave one by one to further their studies.. All are happy and anxious about what are they gonna see in the future of their life and yeah, one by one they vanish and go out of my sight.

It was just a moment when I actually realized that I'm the only one left behind without anything to do other than to stand at a side, looking at them pursuing their dreams and ambitions. Whereas I have none. The dream ends when finally everyone got to their own pathway and perhaps the friends I had and the friends around me is moving away one by one to far away places and town, leaving me alone at a particular place.

To be honest, I don't really understand the dream and what does it stand for but having a deep thought towards it, I feel that this situation is definitely gonna happen very soon. Where everyone I know starts to go their own way. Even now, the people around me are already discussing of where would they be after SPM results are released. TARC, Australia, Singapore and perhaps many other places more. Courses like piloting, engineering, accountancy and stuffs like that are their choices and definitely, they're leaving for good.

Which made me wonder, where am I supposed to be after that ?? What is my future like and what it's gonna be ?? It's kinda funny when people ask of my ambition, my answer would be "I do not know" Is my life really THAT aimless and meaningless ?? Things which i actually wanted is fairly impossible and merely a dream. Especially at this situation. But where am I going to move on from here ?? I wanna see the world, yet I don't have the chance to, yet. It's just me and my own world now. Things are really getting blurry now. Where's my ray of light ?