We live in a world of expectations; where every single thing you do and take into your life, expectations follow. It's not like I'm saying it's wrong to have expectations but I never like such issue in my life. People tend to say, only with high expectations, achievements and success can actually take place. Such is the truth as only if you expect to succeed in life, you would eventually put in the effort to do something and take the responsibility to work towards it. Honestly, it is true, because only when goals are put in front of you; things can be done and achieved, but my question is; when we're trying to hard to achieve goals and goals alone, where does the heart lies?

I have friends who work hard every single day to achieve good results. So much to the point that rest were never in his/her eyes and what's being seen is only the end goal; of having fantastic result. When being asked of what he'd been through all the way throughout the process, there weren't anything worth mentioning at all.

The question on whether or not I should follow what the masses want to see had been hitting hard on my face. Ever since the incident happened, I've been thrown with words like "you must", "you have to", or "do it.. or else" which eventually put me into deep thought again tonight. What I felt is as if all of a sudden, I'm being thrown into a pit with so many rules and regulations that I have to agree and do in order for me to get out of it. It is, of course what I want; but definitely not the road that I want to take.

I came upon the term "Opportunity Cost" first when I was in my Foundations study in the subject of "Principles of Marketing". At that time, or perhaps all along to me, it's just a simple term that people use in the business line; where in every opportunity, there is a cost. In every benefit, there is a bad side of it. But to be honest, it isn't as simple it being in the business line, because in life; everything have a cost and these cost comes from the choices we made.

I remembered being in a sharing session by Guang Liang when he came to UTAR once and he quoted something very meaningful, and it is still clear in my mind; "Life is choice", it is the choices we make that shapes our life, how we are going to be, and what are we going to be. The word choice is so simple, but sometimes, these choices are so hard to be made; to the point that sometimes, I do not want to make any choices at all. Sad to say, sometimes it just could not be done because a choice simply had to be made.

Approximately 4 years ago, I made the decision to skip Form 6 and get into UTAR because I realised that Music is not the path that I can take in Malaysia, because it's way too expensive. I regretted it badly because  4 years later, I found out that there are actually Music Courses being offered in Local Universities.

3 years ago, when I was hinted by my Instructor to take up some skills on arranging and doing something in the Music field, I decided that I shouldn't commit that much any more because it simply does not bring benefit. I regretted it, because if I had just done it, I would've been of much more value now.

2 years ago, when I decided to cut off my relationship because of a sudden 'bad mood' and 'ego'. I regretted because because that decision, my following year in University was just too bad to be explained. But I am glad that happened, because it made me a better person too

1 year ago, when I decided that I should be doing more extra-curricular activities instead of being a book worm. I joined so many activities that I became too busy. My studies dropped like heck (though it's still good), but I'm happy because I got to meet a bunch of awesome people and leaders.

6 months ago, I decided to pick up music again. I was glad, and happy with it because my lost dreams, was actually coming back to me slowly. I was able to go overseas to Taiwan to perform, as well as got to know new friends and obtaining new experience. It was just awesome, something that I never regretted

5 months ago, I took a leap of faith and apparently, it didn't go how I wished it to go. It was a bad moment.  3 months ago, I thought it was time to move on, I made a decision to start up something new. It took only 2 weeks to realised that it wasn't right, because it's not the right time to 'move on'.